A half and half week.

I'm sorry that I missed you guys last week. Last week was one of the best weeks in a while.
The first few days were awful. Things just did not seem to be going my way. I honestly don't remember all the details (which is why I realize now that I should have made it here sooner) but I just remember that there were far more things that I wanted to hate than love. My phone finally gave out on me for good, Eric and I were kind of just off and I was tired of work and of not getting good sleep and of not being able to do what I wanted to do all the time.
Then Wednesday or Thursday night I was on the train on the way home and sat near a small group of 5 or 6 teenagers who talked the entire ride about drugs, about being kicked out of their homes, about boyfriends cheating on girlfriends, and girlfriends starting rumors, and on and on and on these kids went about these dramatic and frankly horrifying things that were happening to them and the people they knew. For a few minutes I was in a bad mood and in my head continuously told them to shut up, and get over it, and take it somewhere else. Then I realized for a quick second as my heart started to soften, that I had been so ungrateful that week. The whole week I avoided blogging and talking with a lot of my friends because I was having a hard time finding something I was happy to talk about. I sat for a second longer, listening to this conversation, and found myself suddenly SO grateful for everything I had. I started to cheer up and it felt so good. How blessed I am to have everything I do.
When I saw Eric that night, I still needed a little more cheering up, that only he can give me, but from that night on we had a fantastic weekend. I started to remember everything I LOVE so much about my life. It was great to see how much gratitude was able to alter my mood. As I looked for and remembered things I have to be grateful for, I was more patient, I was kinder, I was happier and I was better able to recognize the blessings given to me from the Lord and from those around me. Eric and I had a great time out together shopping and taking a trip to Cardston. Even though we only made it half way there, I enjoyed the time I got to spend with him and the time we spent with friends. I LOVE that I have so much to be grateful for.