God Never Blinks.

Right now I'm reading this really fantastic book called God Never Blinks, by Regina Brett. She is an amazing woman, and the stories she tells about her life are just fantastic. It's 50 chapters long, and each is a lesson life has taught her.
When I'm having those feeling kinda down, the world is out to get me, feeling really sorry for myself kind of moments (or days) I turn, first to the Book of Mormon, but then to this book for advice and encouragement. When I need it given to me plain and simple; direct and to the point, I spend a couple of minutes with Regina. She's fantastic.
Today I had to take the bus to work. I hate the bus, especially in Halifax. Although they pride themselves on an excellent transit system, it is hard to get from A to B without passing through C D E and F first. So a trip from Home to Work (taking maybe 10 minutes in a car) forces me to leave almost an hour early, just to make it one time. ANYWAY what started out as a rant about this bus is about to get better: I got to spend about 45 minutes in the book today. And I'm grateful for that.
Today was Lesson 18: A Writer Is Someone Who Writes. If You Want to Be a Writer, Write. Well I do NOT want to be a writer. But there are many other big and important things I dream of being able to do.
Right now (and pretty much since I finished school and came home for the summer), I've been in a bit of a rut. I feel like I'm not learning, I'm not growing, I'm not being productive, and I'm deffinately not excited about anything I have going on right now. I've wasted a lot of time being jealous of those around me, and not working to make my life as good as their's seem. Regina retells a story (originally told by a writer named Anne Lamott), about a little boy. He was 10 and working on a school project (that he was given 3 weeks to do) at the last moment. He sat at the table surrounded by books and books about the birds for his report. His dad said to him "Bird by Bird, buddy. Just take it bird by bird."
Sometimes I feel like a little school child. Like I have projects, reports and assignments that have all been left to the very last minute. I sometimes feel like I'm running out of time to do all the things I need to do, let alone the things I want to do. But today, while I was in the book, I read something that helped me out jsut a little bit. Regina said :

"Writing is that simple. So are most seemingly overwhelming

projects and plans we undertake if we take them piece by piece

bird by bird."

Tonight was a really really really slow night at work. In a 5 hour shift, I litterally saw 3 customers. I had a lot of time to think while I was there, and I had the use of the computer. I spent a lot of time figuring some things out. Bird by Bird. Even after just one night, I feel a little bit better. I feel a little more like I can conquor my life, and not just survive it. Like I can learn to enjoy it, and not jsut endure it.

Bit by Bit. Bird by Bird. Piece by Piece. Step by step I am going to do what I need to do to get excited about my life. I have a good life. I have a lot going for me. Now I just need to figure out how all those things are going to work together for my good!